I'm Regenerating!

I've never really been one to care about how I look. I leave my hair how it comes, put the first clothes I can see in my cupboards and draws on and, in general, I have a care free attitude.  I've always thought inner beauty is much more important than outer. It now seems that the latter is more important to people.

Suddenly, I feel really insecure about how people see me on the outside.  Part of me wants to lock myself away, never to see the light of day. I've felt this before and it's bizarre as it was when similar events have happened to me in the past.

 So, like the Doctor, I'm going to regenerate, but not in the same way. I'm not going to change how I look, how I dress, or how I act.  I am my biggest critic and if I can cope with how I am, then so can others. And if they don't like this me, then it is their lose. People should be impressed and grow to love who you are, not what you are.

I'm not going to change because of some comments made to me.  Yes, I have considered it in the past and yes, I know I'm not the best looking or best dressed guy around, but I really don't want to be.  I'm just going to reinstate my care-free nature and not worry about such things.  Yes, I'm still insecure about myself physically, but I know that I am great on the inside.  People wouldn't be my friends if I wasn't. I'm not a burden to them.

This is me.  I have my faults, my imperfections, but I do have some great qualities of my own. I am unique and you'll never come across another person like me. I know that sounds corny, but it's true. No one has ever, is ever or will ever be like me.  Just because I have certain traits of other people, doesn't mean that I am that person.

"I can be my own person and not be a burden. The voices no longer spew out their poisons to me" - Alex (from the musical I'm working on)

"I don't want to go" - David Tennant (as the Doctor)

Stay Strong
Michael